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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Changes: Leaving Tulsa Behind, and Choosing Worthwhile People

Events are in motion that will carry Fae and I away from the greed and indifference, the belligerence, arrogance and the conservative fools that shape this capitalistic consumer environment known as Tulsa. There, we will be able to breathe.

I thought that, on more than one occasion, I might leave with another, unworthy person. Then again, my past relationships were never of any considerable value, as it were. I have wanted to leave this place, never belonging, for some time. I knew that one day I would leave, of my own accord, or with someone who truly matters.

Fae and I have struggled with the weight of the American debt dream. We have struggled with low spirits created by the dead in a city ripe with the pollution of its own people and the consequence of those people. People come to Tulsa to die, not literally in body, but in spirit. It is cheap to live here, and every obese, rude and lazy individual can afford their ozone-choking SUV's, their video games and fast food, or whatever their apathetic teenager wants.

Our world is changing...Seattle is on the horizon...Canada is right next door...the spirit awakens, good friends await and new horizons grotesquely unfamiliar to those who live in a "box".

In this age of change, I see the insignificance of people once again. I have tried to find decency, relevance and substance; instead, I find the very same reason Tulsa is worthless and unimportant, and why Oklahoma is the same...

...people here, actually think that Carrie Underwood is the greatest talent to rise from Oklahoma soil. The fact is, she is a talentless puppet of the entertainment media, brought to life by a television show that preys on the ignorant and mindless American consumer. She is shaped and molded into a money-making enterprise that, like Britney, will be washed into oblivion by next year. This troubles me greatly, since I can show you greater, unseen talent right here in everyone's backyard, that Oklahomans and Tulsans will never see...these artists have a soul, which is something Tulsa does not understand....

...a sea of Dodge trucks push and shove their way around mature and respectful motorists, and there answer would be "yes, I do own the road"...no asshole, you don't...

...teen girls can not seem to find an identity...I have stressed this issue on more than one occasion, and it is the only logical course: you are an individual...music television, magazine covers and your boyfriend are not the standard by which you should live...clothes are aesthetics, not a way of life...if you have to lose weight to attract the opposite sex, with the exception of obesity, then you really don't need him...augmenting your body to the point that you resemble plastic, means you need to change the way you look at yourself...if you have to sell your body by revealing most of it, this means you need to change the way you look at yourself...and for bloody sake, how many more blonde, tan, doe-eyed, giggling and half-naked bimbo fucking teens do we need in this world?!?!?!?!? At present, the population has rivaled China...have some fucking originality!!!!!!!!!!!

I see people in the film community that are good people, and then I see the pretentious, the opinionated fools and those who are causing injury to the very fabric that others have woven.

...one filmmaker chooses to make immature remarks at another's expense, and he does so in a forum for the advance of others in the filmmaking realm...

...there are film festivals that do more injury than good, more insult than encouragement, and people are either indifferent or blind to this; that is why Oklahoma never achieves the status of the significant...

...one festival portrays crude adolescent humor over anything artistic, and the other celebrates soft porn directors, or people with distribution, over accomplished artists...

...people are taking chances with those who are trying to be a part of an acting community; those who are trying, are at the mercy of sick people who are more interested in nudity, vulgarity and a lack of safety than with advancing the scene in their home state, which is their alleged mission...

...I see words without action...

I continue to see fewer people of notable value, so I have moved in an alternate direction, and now, the path is set. Fae and I are traveling to places where the magic happens, to where support exists in a tangible community. People will be left behind.

The amusing thing is, those I speak of will never see or understand my words. Their pride is larger than their abilities, and they will always remain here.

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